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Yesterday was great
so good to see you for a bit,
but today’s a little darker
and everything is shit
You see when everything is average
there’s no good or bad around
nothing but mediocrity
no excitement in the sound
There’s no buzz inside my body
there’s no smile on my face
there’s just me and four white walls
and I’m just a waste of space
I can’t summon up the energy
to leave the house alone
but I need a little sunshine
to offset this tragic tone.

~ Andrew

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Rock Bottom and Beyond

I don’t wish to call it rock bottom
because one day I could find myself deeper.
What lies beyond could be darker,
A monster, a demon, the reaper?

~ Andrew
Just a little thought today for Day 4 of NaPoWriMo. Been ill for the past few days and it has really drained me. Fully intend to have something every day even if it’s just a simple thought

Roundabout

She smiled up at me,
like a ray of sunshine
I felt warm

Her cheeks turned red
as I kissed her head softly,
holding her hand in mine

Perfection,
no other words could describe
the woman in my arms.

She didn’t see it coming,
wrong way on the roundabout,
but still
she smiled up at me.

~ Andrew
Inspired by a prompt on Reddit where the first line is happy and upbeat and the last line, being the same as the first, is dark and chilling. Not sure mine is a perfect fit for the prompt itself but I felt I’d share it here regardless.

Today Is Like No Other

Every day is just the same,
to anyone but me,
a single day does not go by
without a memory,

A word I heard
a moment passed
a broken heart
each first and last.

The first time I was crying,
the last time I was hurt,
the times when I was losing hope
and crawling in the dirt.

The compliment you gave me
and the warmth of your embrace.
The first time I was grateful
and the time I found my place.

Today is like no other,
It’s like no day gone before,
it’s a brand new page
to write upon,
a new day to explore.

~ Andrew

Misery

He wakes up feeling helpless,
wears the same clothes every day
His eyes are red and swollen
from the tears he held at bay
He smiles, for a second
but the skies are always grey
he’s broken and he’s lonely
heaven knows he’s lost his way

~ Andrew
I’ve been feeling a little bit lost with my writing recently, nothing makes me feel accomplished and I’m finding it harder to post things I’m not entirely satisfied with

No One’s Angel

Her wings are weathered,
worn away by years,
years of fighting agony
and holding back her tears

Her halo doesn’t shimmer,
it’s just there and nothing more,
everyone’s friend, nobody’s angel
a pain that she cannot ignore

~ Andrew
Another poem of loneliness, sorry, positive poems are much harder to write

Have You Met Me?

You know my name,
but have you met me?
I’m not the same person
I was yesterday,
for the sun is now shining
and it’s warm in the shade.

Have you met me?
Have you seen me when I’m broken,
have you seen me when I’m sad
have you seen me when I’m hungry
have you seen me when I’m mad?

If you’ve not seen my darkness,
don’t indulge in my light,
you’re just there for the highs
leaving me cold in the night.

Have you met me when I’m anxious?
The ‘me’ that’s scared to speak,
the ‘me’ that hates the fighting
Because I feel far too weak.

Have you met the other side of me?
He is happy, he is proud,
he is funny, he’s engaging,
he is confident and loud.

I doubt you’ve ever met him..
very few have seen his smile
but to meet my light and darkness
you will have to stay awhile.

~ Andrew
The world is so focused on the highlights of life they forget that we’re humans and we go through pain and difficulty on the path to happiness. Not everyone sees that and those that don’t usually don’t know you as well as they think they do.