Content Warning: Suicide
I didn’t have the guts to write it,
I was scared I’d get it wrong.
So I typed it in a file,
tried my hardest to be strong.
When you reach the point of writing,
you’re convinced that hope is lost,
and the cold you feel inside you,
turns from chills to bitter frost
Take a minute to examine
all the people you address
all the hurt you feel inside you
all the feelings you confess.
You see my note was an apology,
it’s all my heart could say.
Sorry Mum I wasn’t perfect.
Sorry World I couldn’t stay.
Part way through I started crying,
couldn’t bring myself to write,
but there was no revelation
nor evolution overnight.
Just a feeling in my gut,
when I’d forgotten how to feel.
So I stepped away, from all my thoughts,
to look for something real.
As always, with posts on this topic I’m leaving some important links and contact details below, if you or someone you know is struggling please use them.
National Suicide Hotline:
UK: 116 123 (Samaritans) – or email email@example.com
USA: 1-800-273-TALK (8255) – (National Suicide Prevention Helpline)
Rest of the World: HOTLINES